we grow distance

Maybe it's just me who feel this way. Maybe it's just me who has this sensitive radar around my 'once were' closest friends.
Gue sering cuma buka timeline dan cuma merhatiin tweet temen gue yang kayaknya udah beda banget. Like something's off, and there's no way we could settle it back like we used to. Like 'I have no intention to hang out with you anymore, I've been happy with my life now. So, gtfo.' or like 'I don't want to play with you! You ugly!! *rides my scooter*' Well, probably not.

But, I miss you guys..

우리 #1 엄마, Dadia.

I was about to write this in the office since I didn't know how to say happy birthday.

Tatia Chairunisa was born on 8th Feb 1993. Anak pertama dari 3 bersaudara. Gue juga ga tau kenapa gue nulis ini...

Tatia itu... our number one's mom. Tatia yang sering banget ngasih nasihat dengan sudut pandang berbeda. Tatia yang selalu perhatian (damn, I was tearing up when wrote this).
Tatia who loves to say matter of fact yet it's so hard to be accepted and leave a little pang in your chest. Like the way she argued with Tania about me being so tardy and stuffs. The words still ringing tho ;~~~~;
Tatia yang selalu nanyain 'udah periksa ke nyokap temen lo?' if not for you, I'll never be (more) aware of this. Maybe.
Tatia who could be a shoulder to cry on. Iya, empuk.
Tatia yang suka nangis kalo dikerjain. I don't know you're this innocent.
There are too much good things could be filled about Tatia.So, I'll stop here and you, who know her, please kindly go on.

Thank YOU for being there for me, for us. Thank God for letting me know someone like you. If only I could list the best things ever happened in my life, probably it's you. HAPPY TWENTEENS, EOMMA!!!!

And... I am SORRY for ever being badass. I, Ranti, sincerely apologize. I need to bold this in your brain. So, you will remember this whenever I'm being one. Hahahaha.

I love you, Eommaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Butterfly

“You flew into me like a magic

Beautiful butterfly

You left me like the wind

You flew away after fooling my love, leaving only your scent”

K. Will – Butterfly

Love is blind, they said. But it’s kinda true. Put yourself in situation where you’re single then you have one friend who is fooling in love. Her boyfriend blackmailed her, cheated on her, and another bad things. What would you say? JUST BREAK UP! But no, it’s not easy to break up once you’ve been fooling in love. Because I’ve been there and am fooling in love too. Do you get what I’m trying to say here? If you don’t, well, never mind.

Apparently.. I got karma. I always say to myself “I will never gonna be in relationship with B type. Two is more than enough for me. I’ve had enough of this ignorant guys. I just can’t win over them for being ignorant .” BUT, look at me now. I barely move on. *deep sigh*

It bothers me how every single day….. I miss you.